Saturday, February 7, 2009

the Break .its over..

My new Year has begun.
turning 38 a few days ago celebrating in superb fashion with friends that showed me love!! knowing i had been a little down.. not in a bad bad way but kind of serious mood that comes from reflecting on your path that has brought you to another year gone.. Truth, i remain blessed... coming off the year that changed me. made me take a long look inward to deal with the retaliative outside correctly loss & love love & loss.the human struggle.

the last 4 months i decided to take off.
for the first time in my life (alot of first times in my life going on these days) off from the constant hustle of promotions, myspace, news letter, peace project keeping up with whats going on in the news telling you Keeping the Minister de Propaganda myth alive..Enough! i had to stop anything that included any extra effort of my brain and energy.. i made the decision not to get lost and stay busy but release all of it and really listen to my heart and pay respect to what had been 2008 who i had been and who with and thank full for all that i had to learn and GET IT.. big thing for me cause for as long as i can remember i have done kind of opposite work hard grind harder. fuck the pain away.ego ego ego save me I'm drowning. clawing to the top like a crab in a barrel you know how it looks imagine how it feels..
Not this time..

Something yelled loud and clear this is it.WAKE UP.
Can you HEAR me.Are u Moving forward?are u feeling the pain... knowing it. being ok with it.
because in the end it is only the fear of how wonderful it could be,the trick of the past.that no longer exists. the key to the present is how wonderful it is & how wonderful it will be if u allow it
i'd rather be here. now.

so i took off to get my self in order. with a clear perspective on what is important to me.and how happy i can really be. what is it i really want to do and where i want to go.
one Reason why this Blog is now in effect.

where do i start?
some foto's of the birthday dinner!

Time for Action.

This is an ancient story told on Puget Sound and includes how Raven helped to bring the Sun, Moon, Stars, Fresh Water, and Fire to the world.

Long ago, near the beginning of the world, Gray Eagle was the guardian of the sun and moon and stars, of fresh water, and of fire. Gray Eagle hated people so much that he kept these things hidden. People lived in darkness, without fire and without fresh water.

Gray Eagle had a beautiful daughter, and Raven fell in love with her. At that time Raven was a handsome young man. He changed himself into a snow-white bird, and as a snow-white bird he pleased Gray Eagles daughter. She invited him to her fathers longhouse.

When Raven saw the sun and the moon and the stars and fresh water hanging on the sides of Eagles lodge, he knew what he should do. He watched for his chance to seize them when no one was looking. He stole all of them, and a brand of fire also, and flew out of the longhouse through the smoke hole.

As soon as Raven got outside he hung the sun up in the sky. It made so much light that he was able to fly far out to an island in the middle of the ocean. When the sun set, he fastened the moon up in the sky and hung the stars around in different places. By this new light he kept on flying, carrying with him the fresh water and the brand of fire he had stolen.

He flew back over the land. When he had reached the right place, he dropped all the water he had stolen. It fell to the ground and there became the source of all the fresh-water streams and lakes in the world.

Then Raven flew on, holding the brand of fire in his bill. The smoke from the fire blew back over his white feathers and made them black. When his bill began to burn, he had to drop the firebrand. It struck rocks and went into the rocks. That is why, if you strike two stone together, fire will drop out.

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Time for Action.
This is it the start of my Cyber voice,thoughts,events. my life. plain and simple for you to see.judge if you may,but would that be right.. who's asking anyway. so i get started.change it up.move up for some new ish... i wont be going back. she meant a lot. but in her words its a wash. so fresh and so clean.Finding the power in that.Eyes open.heart willing.wings spread.
Remaining Balanced cause that's the key to the lesson that is now, i know. u ready.Follow me.